Seandainyaa...

kita di dunia ini hanyalah sementara. seandainya semua itu punya tuhan kita yang maha esa. tetapi, kadang kadang kita tidak akan tahu kapan kita akan meninggalkan dunia ini. seolah - olah kita berfikir bahwa kita akan hidup selamanya di dunia.

Contohnya adalah penerbangan Malaysia airline dengan nomor MH 370. Pesawat ini hilang kontak pada tanggal 8 Maret (Mach) 2014 pada malam hari waktu malaysia. Saat ini pesawat ini belum pernah di temukan. Nah, apa nasib mereka? 227 Penumpang dan 12 awak pesawat begitu saja meninggal dunia. Mereka begitu saja menghilang tanpa jejak. 

Novel Berbahasa Inggris. Chapter Pertama

Chapter 1

Well, this is me, Kevin Atkins. Probably dead, or maybe still alive while you reading this. I have suffered in this very pathetic school. Monty Montgomery High, yep. I am a freshman at this school. At that time I thought you might be my best friends to me. Yes, you Caliph ‘CJ’ Jones. I wanted to be friends with you so bad. But, you just thought that I’m just your minion who follows you around. Well yes, CJ, this about you. You were that mixed Asian-American guy that has a sense of humour. I talked to you very first day. And, I still regret, why did I talk to you? Since that very day I began being close to you. But, one day. You become rogue. You hurt my feelings, you become arrogant, selfish, high ego to me. The point is, why you hate me so much until that you hurt my feelings? Did I hurt your feelings as well? So, now you understand.  “No more Mr C*** Guy Anymore”

It was hard to make that big decision. As I was adopting the school vibe I’m getting. I was that kind of guy who doesn’t have friends, who walks alone around corridors, or maybe being a lost guy around school. The time that I found my spot for me being left alone is the perfect time to relies that I am a lost loner. But there were one time, one time. I became an attention of the classroom. But that S*** is later. It was lunch time, I usually go to the art room. That I call “salvation checkpoint”. In the end of the day I reflect myself in a piece of a broken mirror. Someday, my heart will be the same fate as the broken mirror.

Every day I suffer from these kind of words. “Go kill yourself” or “Get out of my face”. Its seem like, I beat the school record for being the most bullied student in the school in the past one week. I roam the school, or even meet a big bully. This is about you, Rossy El-Dorado. When we were at the old classroom. You made me cry for the first time. That wasn’t the type of “first expression” that last short. You made me act like a B****. In front Nathan, CJ, Ma’id, Lee. And the point is, you made me terrified for the first time of this school. Because of you, I was terrified thanks to you. Thank god I’m not the same class of you. I hope I never ever see you again.

I really wish that, It never happens again, or even never happened. But it happened again. But I’ll tell you later. There is a lot of people in the queue. Well Rossy, looks like you might go to the back of the queue, Again. Most of the time at school, I usually go to the place that I feel the safest place at school. Yes, it is the library. I go with an Acquaintance who I feel comfortable going with him.

I feel tired at this stage. Wondering how could I survive? I usually talk with Nathan about my feelings some days. And I usually get along with the pack. But it seem like I’ve been ganged up. An Exhausting day. I went home with a face look down passing my house. But, luckily when the night time, I reunited with my old friends. Apparently they were my prep buds. That makes situation less worse.

When I went to school this morning, the whole school was talking about a video of me. Apparently me doing stressful things. Specifically, driving my car reckless while saying bad words. Since that day, I never feel so humiliated. It was gym class. Me, Abraham, Big Toby, walked together. It was an awkward blend. I heard that Big Toby likes to bash people. But I just think that he is lonely. I asked him. “Do you feel lonely?” He suddenly struck a near-miss slap to me.

Before he wanted to say a thing, I ran away. Leaving Abraham with him, Alone.